You folks are magnificent

Sep. 25th, 2017 10:28 am
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I can't reply immediately to your comments (here and by email) because my laptop is currently buried under a pile of papers as I deal with a small crisis. (For the same reason, I can't update my fic this week, darn it.) But as soon as I dig myself out, I'll respond to your wonderful, heartwarming comments. I truly am grateful to you for all your kind remarks.

Contrave

Sep. 25th, 2017 04:01 am
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I just found out that the other medication in Contrave is an antidepressant.

I've been saying I need to go back on antidepressants anyway, so that's good.

I'm hoping it'll help me kick soda and fast food for good, I'll lose lots of weight, get into kickboxing and become badass (in my own mind, anyway.)




If Jessica goes to Tawain next year, I'm invited. So I have that to look forward to.




I looked up Jordan's FaceBook page to see if he got to the U.K. all right.

Doo Deep De Doop

Sep. 25th, 2017 02:16 am
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My co-worker called out sick again tonight, so I'm by myself. No big deal, at least not so far.

I'm going between writing and working on my TEFL course, and from there I was looking up TEFL jobs - including those right here at home.

Now I suppose I should log into my courses starting up at UCSD today.




I signed up for four courses.

On top of the TEFL course.

I'm completely off-the-charts bonkers. UCSD quality courses are going to be intense. I have to get on top of getting the books read and be ready to respond to people and the forums tomorrow.

The bright side is, I basically have eight hours each night to engage in study in. So, what I think will happen:

Hour One: TEFL.

Hour Two and Three: Anatomy and Physiology.

Hour Four and Five: Medical Terminology.

Hour Five and Six: Introduction to Counseling Models.

Hour Six and Seven: Occupational Safety and Security for Health Professionals.

Leave an average of an hour to do checks and various operational tasks around the facility, give or take.

Things

Sep. 23rd, 2017 10:12 pm
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I'm about to go to bed, but here are some thoughts I have in general when it comes to moving:

1. As much as I want to get. Out. Of. Here, and it's hard not to start applying to jobs right now, before I've actually gotten my passport photos signed by Father Dan, before I've completed CDAC or TEFL, etc. I am capable of rationally thinking, "Hey, need to be able to get living wage work. I can't work at Starbucks."

---> On the flip side, credentials often don't translate when moving internationally. CDAC happens to be one of the few that does. TEFL is as well.

---> I was thinking I could also begin working on credentials (like an AA or AS) that could translate to academic or vocational programs in the U.K./E.U. Like, if I worked on getting an AA or AS degree through a CCC, I could then work on finishing a degree (like a teaching credential) in the U.K.

---> London in particular is a very diverse community, so if I get TEFL/CELTA/TEYL/Etc. certified I can seek work in London. But London's very expensive. Which leads me to point #2:

2. Try to jump straight into working in a country where I don't speak the language? Or try to go to the U.K. for a while first?

Pros to going straight to another country: Force myself to learn languages. More likely to find work. I want to travel. I can work on getting vocational/academic work done in universities that translate to more countries than the USA.

Cons to going straight to another country: The U.K. has a lot of rules about who can partake as active citizens or not, so by not living in the U.K. I forego those opportunities sooner.




I've also been thinking that if I save 3-5k before April and pay off any debt, I can take a break before trying to find work and finally do Eurail, which I've always wanted to do.




Leia: You mean you'd go to England to see Jordan?
Me: ???????? No?!?!?!

Why would I try to meet someone who can't follow through on their plans in the same shopping center in another country? That makes no sense.

TEFL

Sep. 23rd, 2017 03:15 pm
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I'm trying to do my TEFL done during the night shift. I think I should be able to complete it by the first of November.

My thought is by April (earliest goal point) I can hopefully pay off all my debts and save 3k, at which pint I'd move to Europe.

More realistically, maybe September.

I'm trying to decide if I move to BELFAST first, or go straight to Italy.

Coming-out (over)sensitivity

Sep. 22nd, 2017 11:49 pm
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So, eleven years ago, when I first began to suspect I was grey-asexual, I posted about my asexual character Merrick at the main asexual forum.

It didn't go well.

http://www.asexuality.org/en/topic/20059-life-prison-fantasy-story-w-asexual-character/

Rereading that thread, I'm not sure why I writhed from the comments, except that . . . Well, read on.

So I mostly avoided the asexual community from then on. Fast forward to 2017, when yes, I'm sure now that I'm grey-asexual. So I got up my courage and mentioned Merrick to another asexual person.

It didn't go well.

https://mobile.twitter.com/duskpeterson/status/911342888272912384

Subthread:

https://mobile.twitter.com/duskpeterson/status/911418499800629249

Afterwards, I tried to beat back my tears by reciting to myself the valuable mantra, "It's not about you. It's not about you. You're the one who offended, so don't make this about you."

Still . . .

I wish I wasn't so darned sensitive during the coming-out stage. I went through this when I came out as bi, I went through this when I came out as nonbinary, and now I have to go through it *again*, this feeling that I'm not a proper [insert category] till I've been welcomed into the [insert category] community. (This isn't pure paranoia. My nonbinary coming-out experience in the gay/lesbian/bi community and trans community was a horror story.) And so, if I encounter even the slightest sign that I'm not 100% accepted, I curl up into a ball and whimper.

So basically, I could use a few "Yay, you're asexual!" comments from you kind folks.
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Title: Too Late, Too Drunk
Fandom: Riverdale
Relationship: Cheryl/Veronica
Characters: Cheryl Blossom, Veronica Lodge
Rating: T
Word Count: 565
Notes: Written for the prompt "In Vino Veritas/Drunkfic" at [community profile] trope_bingo Round 9. Card here. Also on AO3.
Summary: A drunk Cheryl shows up outside Veronica’s apartment and confesses her feelings.
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Title: Ours Now
Fandom: Riverdale
Relationship: Cheryl/Veronica
Characters: Cheryl Blossom, Veronica Lodge
Rating: T
Word Count: 560
Notes: Written for my free space using the prompt "AU: Apocalypse" at [community profile] trope_bingo Round 9. Card here. Also on AO3.
Summary: Cheryl and Veronica team up to survive the zombie apocalypse.
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Title: One Kiss Wouldn't Hurt
Fandom: Riverdale
Relationship: Cheryl/Veronica
Characters: Sabrina Spellman, Cheryl Blossom, Veronica Lodge
Rating: G
Word Count: 620
Notes: Written for the prompt "Bodyswap" at [community profile] trope_bingo Round 9. Card here. Also on AO3.
Summary: Cheryl and Veronica end up in each other’s bodies, thanks to Sabrina.



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Title: Proud of You
Fandom: Riverdale
Relationship: Betty/Veronica
Characters: Veronica Lodge, Betty Cooper, Alice Cooper, Hal Cooper, Polly Cooper
Rating: G
Word Count: 685
Notes: Written for the prompt "Coming Out (of the Closet)" at [community profile] trope_bingo Round 9. Card here. Also on AO3. Happy Bi Pride week!
Summary: Veronica has dinner with her girlfriend's family.


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Night One

Sep. 21st, 2017 03:49 am
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So she didn't wake up at 3:30 as promised and ignored my text asking her if she was ready to switch. So I went upstairs and told her it was time to switch.

It's super annoying she thinks this behavior is okay. But anyway.




ETA: I came down in the morning and she had closed the door where she was and had fallen asleep again!!! She hadn't started the hot breakfast!

I officially called her out on it so if she's still just sleeping all night at this point it's just tough shit for her.

Things

Sep. 21st, 2017 01:17 am
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So, at work, I've decided I'm just going to try and set stricter boundaries with Monique. Part of what we'll be doing (which we should be doing anyway) is stay in a room where the door can lock if we're having a sleeping break. That way clients can't walk in and realize one of us is asleep.

It also means that if I'm awake, Monique will not have cause to turn off her alarm and go back to sleep. She'll have no reason to think I'm doing checks anyway. And that's how it should be. Regardless of if I'm sleeping or working, the point of dividing checks that way is so one person can have downtime. If I'm studying TEFL or nursing, it shouldn't matter.

The other thing I'm thinking about suggesting is that instead of dividing the sleep each night, we instead separate it by day. Monique has already cut Thursdays from her work week, so my thought is I stay awake Sunday and Monday night and she stays awake Tuesday and Wednesday night. Then the other Sara (who works with me Thursdays) and I will switch off - one week I'm awake all night, one week she's awake all night.

That way instead of two severely sleep-deprived people, there is one person who is awake and one person who is resting their entire shift (unless there is an emergency.) Whoever is taking the lead that night is fully rested, and since the resting person will have mostly uninterrupted sleep, they should recover better if they need to get up.




So, I can't remember what happened, but there was some conversation about seeking co-parents so I looked up the website. I thought it was going to be single parents looking for people to team up (e.g. a teacher, a nurse, a firefighter, and a store clerk cooperating together so that they can save money on child-care.)

And I looked up the website and I couldn't find out more without making an account, but it's actually people looking either for free sperm donation, either without parenting rights or with the goal of co-parenting (as in, both parties actively taking part in the child's life in terms of legal, kinship, and fiscal ways.)

That was not what I was expecting! But you know? Actually sort of cool. I'm glad to see the options of how people start and maintain families increasing. Some friends I have can't have kids on their own and I thought co-parenting with them would be cool. Seems like there would be more cooperation and less likeliness of a horrible blowup than in a situation where the parenting is tied to a romantic relationship.

I think the funniest thing is that men on that website are waaaaaaay less creepy/skeevy. Nothing chases away the creepy men like 'co-parent' as part of your search.

Nursing Vs. Counseling

Sep. 19th, 2017 11:33 pm
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I think instead I'd rather do nursing and social work, with some counseling training.

I've been reading up on it and apparently a lot of rehabilitation therapies are not seen as particularly scientifically sound.

I'm wondering why, for instance, the facilities in these areas (no specific one) don't focus on anti-opiods such as naltrene over the Twelve-Step program, which have scientifically sound evidence that they are effective against addiction. Apparently the USA is far far behind other developed countries in their approach to addiction.




In learning about all of this, I'm going to try taking Contrave this year and see if it helps me stop binge-eating. Treat my problem like an illness and try to approach it as such.

Lol

Sep. 19th, 2017 07:04 pm
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Isha said Makayla had walked the into Monique snoring because she was so loud.

Okay, THAT doesn't sound like Monique. That might have been me. I know people have told me I snore pretty loudly. (I don't get HOW, since I don't have tonsils or adenoids. Also, I record myself sleeping sometimes - to try to catch me snoring and how bad, since people have woken me up less than an hour after me falling asleep to tell me I was being loud - and it never seems to catch snoring. It's like my brain doesn't do those bad habits when I'm watching myself.)

There's no way that happened recently though cuz we don't go in that room anymore. And well, I don't think I've slept during a shift in weeks. I kept getting more and more anxious about Monique's pattern. It's possible I dozed off once or twice during the time we were in that room.

However: Regardless, I'm now trying to research what legitimate ways there are to stop snoring.

Weekly Otherkin Chat Starting Now!

Sep. 20th, 2017 12:00 am
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Reminder: Weekly #otherkin chat starting now, in irc://irc.mibbit.net/dreamhart! Webclient here: http://dreamhart.org/chat/

UGH

Sep. 19th, 2017 04:56 am
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Due to circumstances at work tonight I was convinced to go in and now my co-worker is sleeping again.

I resent letting my guilt and concern manipulate me that way.